Vessel

I just had to get this off my chest
I know it’s been a while since we talked
But
I went on a little journey
Packed up all I had
And set sail
Rough water
And winds
That tossed me back and forth
My broken theology boat wasn’t strong enough
About halfway
I had to drop my best intentions
Storms came
And
They weighed too heavily
On my mind
They were all I had left
Barely made it to my destination
But I made it
New Orleans
The big easy
Hopefully it would be big enough
To easily lose myself in
I spent one week
Losing myself in trying to be good enough
I should have just been faithful
I lost myself
In bitterness, sainthood, and rules
Trying to be perfect
When perfection was what I was after, not You
I became
French Quarter street corner preacher
Self-righteousness was my path into heaven
Standing on my accomplishments
Not your grace
Playing songs so people would see me
My heart was lip-synching the words to you
I fell hard after the rock I stood on gave way
I think I may have been a little off
It’s why I wanted to talk
I know I haven’t been what you made me for
Take me
Overflow me
Make ink drip out my fingertips
So I leave a mark
When I touch people
Touching people with words from you
Lead me
Put me up on a cross
Crucify me
Daily
Leave me up till I split open
And all of me leaks out
Replace it with you
Make these blind eyes see
Reasons for love
Instead of anger
Let me see people
As your children
Let them see me
As the moon
Reflecting the Son
Shining light into night
Use me
Craft me
Set me sail
With your best intentions
Anchor me to them
If I try and drop them overboard
Drown me
In your grace
You know I’m going to need it
Humble me
Make me see you again
Make me a servant
Replace my burden with yours
I know it’s light
I know we haven’t talked in a while
But
I know I still need you

Be Sociable, Share!

•